As I’m writing this I’m thinking about how much is going to change in the next couple of days or months rather. See, while I was in Bend I decided that I’d finally try out skiing. Great idea right? Well…kinda.
Let me start by saying I’ve never been involved in sports. I’ve never had any interest in it and growing up I went to a performing arts magnet that allowed me to take dance all throughout middle school. Once I hit high school, I decided to excuse myself from P.E. and proceeded with my dance background and started taking ballet. That carried on for some of college. What I’m trying to say is I’ve never been a softball, soccer or any game player so why would I be good at skiing?
I took a morning class and after falling constantly and practicing after lunch on my own I thought maybe I’m ready now. So I hit the beginners slope, completely shaking on my way up in the lift, sitting with a young teen thinking “how are you not scared?” Well she wasn’t and we went down the slope together. My boyfriend and our friends were off at some other slope that was a little harder.
I went down the slope, ate it a few times and in my last run as I was approaching the end, I’m going full-force French fries and I’m like telling myself YOU CAN DO THIS. I got for a big pizza and I start to see my skis get tangled which was bad and as I try to untangle them and make a turn to stop myself the skis get caught, I fall and my leg gets caught and my entire right knee twists. Fast-forward to now and well I tore my ACL. Not only is this slowing me down from work, blogging and normal every day life but I’m heading to surgery in two days. First one ever in my life. Just my luck. I try skiing and I guess it’s not my thing? Such a shame cause it looks SO COOL.
The point of my story is that while I tried all weekend to cure my blues as I was limping around trying to finish several freelance things I have lined up, I had a moment where I thought, if you could get in heels and look absolutely gorgeous one last time before you head into the most challenging few months, you can look back and think you did that!
I know I’m crazy. So I did one last shoot with my Bailey Blue cross back chiffon maxi, full hair and make up and this amazing faux fur coat I got at Forever 21 ages ago. And you know what else I accessorized with? A handmade crystal necklace, my fave Sunday Girl necklace and of course, what I won’t ever leave my house with from here until fall, my trusty brace. I thought maybe I’ll look ridiculous. Maybe people will say “you’re crazy how could you wear heels with a torn ACL.”
My answer to all of that is “I may have lost my ACL but I will never lose my sense of adventure or style.” You don’t stop living because you get hurt. Whether that’s physically or emotionally. A few months from now when I’m back up and running, I can look back at these photos and remind myself, you are strong, you are determined and you’ll be okay.
See my last photoshoot for a little while. Not sure how long but stay tuned.
How do you cure your winter blues?
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*Note: I have collaborated with Bailey Blue Clothing for this free product to review. All opinions are my own.